這晚上被濃濃的不安包圍著，或許，從來就沒有感到安全過。

Hey, you sad? Nah, I'm just, thinking to myself. 'Bout what? Bout loneliness, guess we choose to be lonely, right? I mean, nobody could ever make you feel like that if u yourself do not allow it. Right? Don't know, probably, why? Cause I've been letting shit happens like this. All that crap bout feeling alone even when companied. Guess u deserved it. Right, I do. But things happen for a reason, guess getting along with loneliness is your topic? Like getting along with yourself you know. ... Ay dunno, I believe my relation with self is pretty satisfying, I feel safe being alone. Safe and lonely, u know. Better stop thinking. Yup. 

我戀愛得很寂寞。

怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，怎麼辦，不要怕，念念，沒有誰沒了誰會活不了。我知道你可以的，我知道你吃得了苦，我知道即使是一個人，你也挺得過去，我知道你可以的，你可以的，你可以的，你可以的，你可以的，你可以的！

You

You're so close yet so far, sometimes within my palms, sometimes out of my sight.

I have no idea what to do to always keep you within my reach.

如果，如果有這麼一段經歷，在過了許久許久以後你仍然會想起，會回味，像重新再感受一次的話，請就這樣由著它，別太在意，別去遺忘，就這樣，由著它。

在所謂專一的世界裡活著的人，總在口邊掛著廝守一生，彷彿對著活一輩子就是愛。

若相對而立，卻摸不著你的思緒，猜不透你的傷春悲秋，那該是多寂寞的朝朝夕夕。

你知道嗎？你不知道，
你讓慌張的我定下神，
你讓迷惘的我看清楚，
你讓失望的我再相信，

你知道嗎？你不知道，
你的堅定是我的依靠。

你知道嗎？

感動我心的很多時是沒有詞的音樂，
就像叫人難忘的永遠是莫名其妙的感受。

我情願一直都不懂，都不想破壞這種模糊的感受。如果莫名其妙的情感太叫人難受，開杯白水沖淡點，一切便又美麗起來。

心滿滿的 :)

I wanna scream.

I figured that I'm now at some point of my life, a turing point, where I was offered so many choices, but somehow, it seems to me that I don't really have any. Maybe I'm not ready to choose...or maybe I don't know what I want...or, maybe I'm scared...how is it suppose to end?
I always thought I'm positive, and determined with what I want, but the faith is tumbling, I'm confused... I wish I know how.

Can't believe I'm having the last examination in my uni life and that soon I can't even call myself a student anymore! I'm nervous now.